The Things to Remember

Well we're going to start this off with something that you probably don't want to hear, However you need to hear it and Accept it. If you are dealing with an addictive personality like me then as said before the problem IS NOT THE SUBSTANCE this is nothing but the SYMPTOM of our disease the disease centers in our thinking in our perception, It's in our HEADS. My head has a contract on my ass. Hence we have a mental problem. And whether I'm clean a day, a week, a month, a year, multiple years, or just an hour, a minute, a second, a nano second, My disease is in the parking lot doing push-ups, keeping strong just waiting for the opportunity to get me. It will use any means possible a resentment, a callous comment, a perceived hurt or slant, a negative thought. You know the ones, all those lies told to us at one time or another, and we were vulnerable enough to consider it in the back of our minds and told often enough that we stated to believe the lies like-I'm not worthwhile, I'm too stupid, I'm too fat- I'm to whatever you fill in the blank they are all the same. We need to be reminded by ourselves and the ones we choose to have in our lives that we are children of GOD and we are worthwhile and that each one of us are treasures with out equal. we are all lovable, valuable, worthwhile, wonderful human beings.

we also need to recognize that as an addictive personality, I have this wonderful tool at my disposal called a Brain, however as it has been programmed by years of abuse from others and myself and not fed enough positive input, that our thinking patterns have become damaged. One of the main aspects in this is my brain can be quite the forgetter at times it can lose facts and have distorted memories. Case in point after being clean for a period of time, my brain will remember the "so called" good times" and long long ago there were some no doubt, it conveniently forgets the times we woke up in jail, the times we woke up broke, the times we humiliated ourselves beyond comprehension, it forgets the hospitals, the arguments, the police, the shame, the guilt, the remorse,. This again is our disease having a contract on our asses. NEVER FORGET WHY WE ARE HERE.
Remember GOD does not make Garbage