Why We need to Remember our last Drunk/High ETC

This Is vital in recovery especially early recovery. Why? you ask, why would I want to remember the Pain, Guilt, Shame, Humiliation, all the disgusting details of a horrible part of my life. Well my friends the answer is two fold.

First and most importantly is ; First off let remember that we have an allergy of the body coupled with an obsession of the mind, through abstinence we have stayed the allergy, now comes the hard part , taming the obsession of the mind. Remember that we have a disease that has a contract on our butts. that while we are abstinent and in a meeting or having a coffee with friends and/or sponsor, our disease is in the parking lot doing push-ups staying strong looking for any foot hold to get us back out. If you are an alcoholic/addict like me with an addictive personality coupled with a soul sickness and a mind that does not always hear things or perceive things as they truly are. You see, your God probably gave you the same great tool My God gave me --A Brain, however My thinking works in this brain and My thinking isn't always my friend, And after years of abuse my brain doesn't always work the way it should. sometimes it gets very forgetful. In times of stress, loneliness, resentment, perceived slights and the like it can very easily forget the Pain, the shame the jails, the broken promises, the hospitals, the institutions, the police visits, the broken relationships, the crying children, the humiliations, that come with drinking and/or using. It remembers the few if any good times it conveniently forgets the bad times. This is the foremost reason I have to keep this memory alive for times like this when our disease is attempting to lure me back.

The second reason is more simplistic, all these memories become our tools to help the newcomers, so that they may relate to our stories so they can hear and see that we understand where they are coming from and that they to can recover and that they can feel no longer like the worst piece of crap on the earth that somebody else has done the things that they are not proud of that their pains, guilt's, shames, humiliations are shared and they are no different or worse than any of us that came before. Ultimately that they too are worthwhile.
Always remember God does not make Garbage.