More on Relapse

The last few days we went over a few of the signs and symptoms that you need to be alert for. These feelings and behaviours if not kept in check and action taken can very well lead to relapse, as individuals in recovery it is imperative that we constantly be aware of our feelings and behaviours and more over where they are coming from and what is creating them in us. By doing so allows us to be at our best and to lead lives that are happy, joyous and free. However this is not to say that we will not have down times that is unrealistic, we all experience times of being down, however being aware of this as well as the reasons gives us the power of choice. It allows us to keep on keeping on, knowing these feelings will pass, and a new day will dawn brighter than ever.

These new tools coupled with previous tools, such as the advice to do a drug and/or alcohol history and the suggestion of doing a written step one gives you more than enough, power and tools to make a knowledgeable and positive choice when confronted with the tricks of the mind our disease will play. You must always remember that your addiction will never go away, you can only arrest the toll it has taken on your life and the influence it has over your choices and your life. Your addiction is in the parking lot as you read this doing push-ups and all it can to once again control your life. Our addiction does not diminish just because you are in recovery. The minute you pick up you are right back where you left off. It hasn’t been erased or lessened to any degree whatsoever, as soon as you pick up it takes over right where it left off. However as long as you do not pick-up or spent time thinking on it, it has no power over you.

Even on those down days when it seems nothing can go right and feeling that “just one might take the edge off and get things right back in the swing of things” Remember that there is no problem and/or situation that a drink or a drug will make better, it’ll only make it worse. Yes I the lies my head can tell me, it starts to remember the good times the fun times, however remember your drug and/or alcohol history that you wrote and the written step one, you wrote, your truth, your history. I remember that in the beginning there were fun times good times, however that was a long, long time ago as I kept using those times became less and less, it became I was always chasing those times and never catching. The addiction brings up those times and fantasies, however my written history and written step one tell me the truth. I had a dear friend who used to always say, “I don’t pick-up, no matter what, even if my ass is falling off, I don’t pick-up, I just try to thankful for the weight loss.

Remember God does not make garbage