Why I write this blog

Hi all, today’s topic on why I write this blog, well actually there are a few reasons. One of course is the wish to give back to share that which has served me so well something’s through experience and some passed on from my teachers as well as some I stumble upon. Another reason is to clear up things I see not clarified in our fellowships these days, and some clarification on some issues that is needed if one really wants to achieve what this program has to offer. Then there are my personal reasons which I guess are somewhat selfish, I need to speak about some of these things to remind myself as I have this thing in my head which can gather a lot of information, yet sometimes with life happening and life’s situations I sometimes forget that which I know it gets lost in the files in my head, however when I blog about this stuff it keeps it fresher and closer to the surface, so it is easier to bring forth when life’s situations call for the need of it. One such situation I discovered today while visiting some friends. We were discussing what we had all been up to lately. While I was speaking I was sharing on some other projects that I had been researching and thinking of getting into, however I was still researching and building my site and all the work I still needed to do to bring this to fruition. When I realized that I was lying, not to my friends, but to myself. I have been stalling on research and building and launching this project, I had been procrastinating. Why? Out of fear, fear I wasn’t knowledgeable about the subject; fear at failing, fear of ridicule. Now that I had talked about it openly and in some detail It brought the truth to the forefront if I was willing to see and acknowledge the feeling that were coming up as I spoke on how it wasn’t ready yet. Having worked through these feelings in the past and counselled others, I was able to see the procrastinations and stalling techniques as I talked about it and the little tell tale feelings that twinges as I spoke I was able to stop and recognize what was really happening. It’s amazing how those old tapes that were drilled into to us can still come back. I had believed myself to have worked through those long ago. Yet here they were attempting to get me again, it’s amazing how a few upsets in life and detours and those old doubts can creep silently into the back of our minds. Yet I was able to recognize what was happening through open discourse with trusted friends. This and blogging helps to correct negative destructive behaviours. Even though it was not foremost in my thinking, it is open honest discourse with trusted associates that one may see things. And sometimes it is the trusted friends that may see something, and help you see. This is the great value of a support system and a sponsor, as well as a trusted counsellor and/or recovery coach.
Remember God does not create garbage