Relapse

Hi, Today’s blog is about relapse. It is something that you will battle in one way or another throughout your recovery. You face it all the time. You see the one’s in the meetings. You know the ones. They are constantly coming in and out. Most of them are results of yesterday’s blogs. We pity them because they don’t get it. We see the pain for some. The desperation. We also thank them. For they show us what we don’t want. We sometimes even envy them. Because they got to run away one more time, they got that “escape”. However then we see the cost, and we thank them for showing us why we are here and why we do what we do. We also see the one’s that seem to have had some time under their belts. We wonder why. Well the answers are many. Sometimes we see that they had just been dry and not really changed. Sometimes they had just been dry and not done the work. Sometimes they had just not done the “hard” work. Sometimes they just forgot to continue the work. Sometimes they just forgot where they came from, stopped attending meetings, stopped praying, and stopped doing the work.
Sometimes they just got lazy. They stopped being vigilant about, their program, they stopped taking personal responsibility. Relapse does not just happen out of thin air. It’s a slow, sometimes faster build-up of things. We get frustrated> we start asking why I have to be so honest, ethical, moral or have so much integrity. While Joe blow doesn’t. And he seems to be ok. Most of the world isn’t. Let’s face the truth we live in a society that doesn’t really value or support honesty, integrity or proper ethics. In all reality we live in a society that seems to give more to those that don’t have Morals, ethic integrity or honesty. However For us it is a must or we pay the ultimate price. RELAPSE, Then death if not literally, at the least emotionally, spiritually, mentally and slowly physically. Relapse actually starts when we start slipping on are honesty, are morals, are ethics, are integrity. When we start cheating a little on our taxes, or partners. When we start the little lies. When we start entertaining in our heads, you know those private thoughts and battles. The ones where we think we can get away with it, no one will notice, everyone else does it. That it where relapse starts. These are the red flags that I need to pay attention to. Fix what has I’ve been ignoring in my program. More meetings. Talk to sponsor. Prayer and meditation. Spending more time with those that important to my recovery. You know where you have been lacking. If you get honest with self. Help another, Help yourself.
Remember god does not create garbage