Staying the Course Or Keeping the Faith

This is the hard part, all this talk of trusting the inner most selves or the intuitive self, you know the part of you that instinctively knows right from wrong, is easy to say and nice words. Yet when the tire meets the road or in all reality it is not that easy to follow. The fear sets in; it gnaws in the back of your mind. The questions of fear come up, like what happens if I don’t have enough? And all those other real fears, you know the ones. Let’s face it we all want to be responsible, and we all want to have the means to be responsible, to pay our bills and get the things we need and want. Yet again the fears set in. What happens if I don’t have enough to pay all my bills? Or get those things for the family? Or what happens if I fall even farther behind? How will I ever catch up? We tend to start to bend to those fears, we start looking for short cuts. For the easier softer way.

Well isn’t that what faith is all about? There is an old saying” if you worry, don’t pray. If you pray don’t worry”. Again, I know easy words. However it is not such easy words, I do not speak from a place of wealth where it is easy to say such things as I have the means anyway. I speak from the same boat as you. I have not the means today; however I do trust that the means will be made available. My history has shown such, in the darkest of times things happen and I make it through. Not how I wish they could be, I don’t win the big lottery or get the great big bonus, I just find a way to get by. Yes I do wish to do more than just get by; however just for today that is what is happening. I do not suffer, the main reason I do not suffer is I usually stay away from worry and fear. I would like to say I never fear or worry, however that would be a lie. However 95 % of the time I do. It is especially difficult when my partner‘s level of anxiety is up and she shares that, and/or when there are more pressing family needs and/or wants. However that is when more prayer is required and faith, as well as a look to the past. Has not my God led me through in the past, and has not my God gotten me to where I am today, which is basically everything I need at this precise moment as well as clean and sober and a better life than before. I do not believe that my God has brought me this far just to leave me hanging or to desert me. The only way for it to get bad is for me to take charge without faith and to backslide on doing what is right and what is right in front of me. I must continue in faith that my God has my best interests in heart and hand.
Remember God does not create garbage