Being Self Aware

Hello my fellow recovering friends. Today I’m going to blog a little differently, and share a little more of myself today. Like I’ve been discussing in the last week or so, about being self aware. Am truly that is it is all about be aware of self, your behaviours and trends into unhealthy behaviours and habits
The other day I was trying my hand at baking. Now mind you I’ve never been much of a baker. Never really tried much. I am a pretty fair cook and have worked in kitchens, been a kitchen manager ran a cafe. So figured baking can’t really be that difficult. So I attempted to make a strawberry pie, from scratch. Well let’s just say the experiment did not turn out so well. First off attempted to make the crust with butter rather than lard. Well I just can’t get it came out not flaky, however that would have been somewhat acceptable. However the filling just didn’t make it at all. Runny and bitter, I figured didn’t need much sugar as strawberries pretty sweet, right. Well my pie was wretched. I was so upset with myself. I’m supposed to be perfect. The pie was supposed to be great. At the very least somewhat good. Well it wasn’t even edible, in my opinion. I was grouchy for almost an hour. Talk about acceptance, and turning it over.
So I get over that. Or so I thought. I get my wife a new phone for her birthday. One of these new fangled smart phones. Well actually her birthday was last week, however it took a week with negotiations with Phone Company to get a new plan as our old contract had run out. So we had to haggle with provider for a good retention plan. Finally got a good plan with extras. So went and got the phone. Well I get a little frustrated with the wife. Because she is not setting it up the way I think she should. She’s playing and discovering all the bells and whistles. I’m telling her she needs to read the manual and then get the apts from the computer. And she’s just enjoying it and playing. Well I’m getting frustrated because don’t you know she should be doing it my way. I decide to go have a cigarette, well that gives me time to look at my behaviour. I realize that I haven’t completely let go of my pie failure the previous night. So I need to be right about the phone now. Instead of just letting her enjoy her present her way, after all it is for her. How childish of me. So I had to laugh at myself, go back in and apologize to my patient lovely wife, and just let her enjoy her present her way. Sometimes the committee can make me very childish. Must constantly work at being self aware.
Remember God does not create garbage